Passing on your fears

What kind of person do you think you are? Kind, funny etc. I really want LPV to get my best traits, unfortunately he’s already got my stubborn trait the one thing I don’t want him to get is my scaredy cat trait. I’m am scared of pretty much everything, water even though I was a confident swimmer as a child,absolutely scared of anything with four legs not chairs & dinning room tables. Most of the time I scared to try new things because I worried about what people will think, my dutch for example I am scared to try what I’ve learn’t just in case people laugh. Sports etc scare me, on our honeymoon Expatdaddy wanted to get a Kayak and paddle out to one of the small Islands near Thailand, at this point I have to say that we were in Langkawi, Malaysia not the Island of White!! It was really that far but I was terrified and as soon as the beach got smaller I was “shouting that’s far enough, what if there’s a tsunami” For me thou actually getting the bloody Kayak was an achievement. Also have you seen Castaway, now I know I’m a wee bit crazy sometimes but I never want a Wilson!!!

On a trip to Sri Lanka, I sucked it up, pushed my fear of heights to the back of my head and we climbed Sigiria, shitting ones self does not begin to cover it but it was a massive accomplishment. I don’t want to be the Mammy that has to sit and hold the coats while her family goes off and enjoys themselves, I want to be the Mammy that gets stuck in, even tho she dying on the inside!! It was truly an amazing experience tho, if you ever get the opportunity, DO IT!!!

I climbed that!! Yay me!!

Whilst on holiday in Slovenia for our friends wedding, somebody in all their farking wisdom thought it would a superb idea to go white water rafting. Scared stiff but I agreed to it ,  I didn’t want to be the one that ruined it for our friends. I shoehorned myself into my wet suit and into the boat I went. It was fun I have to say, but all the while I just panicking that we’d tip over. Half way through we did some body surfing  “let the current take me, yeah dream on sunshine” but I did it. That bit I hated, along with jumping of a bridge into rock filled water with a current stronger than the incredible hulk!! Oh that’s something I’ve always dreamed off!! *sarcastic tone* I sat on the rock getting attacked by wasps while the others did it. It was fun, it really was *NO sarcastic tone* we all had a laugh, some of it was at my expense but sometimes I think you have to get this sort of thing to get over your fears.

Now I can say to LPV “over my dead body are you going White water rafting” all jokes aside I can tell him I did It, your Mammy is bad ass!!! I want him to be brave enough to try these things but to also be brave enough to admit he’s scared. I’m not going to be a wrap him up in cotton wool mammy, I want him to be a kid and try kids things but I’ll always be there to catch when he falls.

Yes there are photo’s………………………….

Look at my face, hahahaha

Which one am I, the only ADULT with her helmet still on, on dry land!!

Farking lunatic

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