Today was a day of change for my wee man, today he started Peuterspeezaal. This is like a form of dutch nursery school/playschool, I’ve been talking to him about for quite some time, however you never really know how much they actually take in. Or whether he’s like his daddy and gets that glazed over look when I talk too much.

The day didn’t get off to a great start, when I mentioned him getting dressed for school he went quiet and turned back to watch Thomas again. He then looked at me teary eyed and said “mammy come too” this then destroyed me and EPD came down stairs to find us both crying cuddling each other.

So we all got dressed got in the car, drove to new school and I took him in, it started well he handed over snuggy & na (snuggle blanket & dummy) and went to find his favourite bus that he knew they had. I told the teacher I was just going to leave after I said goodbye to him, she walked over to him and he went nuts. I just left and went around the corner to look in the window, I could still hear him screaming, next thing I know my phone rings and its EPD “wanna come sit in the car?” amusing really as he couldn’t leave either. We waited for a bit and then I went back to see if he was ok. Worse mistake I could make, I peeked in and seen MY baby, alone in the corner crying. Que mother guilt on a whole new level, the pre school teacher in me knew what they were doing, they’ve other children to deal with and they were doing circle time, probably hoping to entice him to join in. However the mother in me wanted to burst in scoop him up and call them heartless bitches and keep him at home with me.

Later I had a call to say he was fine and when I went to fetch him he was as happy as a pig in poop, they said he was happy but has quote “A lot of rules to learn” sweet jesus lady he’s two and a half of course he has rules to learn and it is his first day.

Anyway he’s been talking about school a lot this afternoon so I hope he’s more chipper when he returns on Friday and I’m less emotional

I don’t think this will ever get easier, I’m a protector now and its my instinct to protect my young, like a lioness, rooooooaaaaaaaarrrr!

5 thoughts on “Changes

  1. Ellie at Emerald Pie says:

    Oh its a tough time! My youngest would bawl every morning and stop as soon as I left the building. I knew this because they sent me an sms when she settled. It does get easier though. Best of luck!!

  2. bookgrrl says:

    My daughter would cling and not let go, and it took a bit of persuading from the teacher to say goodbye. Sometimes there were tears, and and running out the door. She was happy the second I left! She stopped abruptly when she turned 5, because she was a ‘big girl now’. It does get better 🙂

  3. Farrah (@Momofthreeunder) says:

    ‘A lot of rules to learn’. Ha- yeah. The teachers have told me that my boys ‘don’t sit very quietly during story time’. No shit!!!!
    B is 4 next month, so joining the ‘biig kid’ school attached next door and the twins are 2. Chase is no problem with drop off, but Linc is very, very clingy and depending on the day he may have a breakdown. He always stops crying within a few minutes (and besides, he has TWO brothers in there so it’s like- um, get over it kiddo- some kids are solo!) and they’re all happy when I pick them up.
    It will get easier- but whenever there is a break I find that it’s really hard to get him comfortable again. I find it interesting how different 3 kids can be in the same situation. Good luck to you- I know this isn’t easy.

  4. upsydaisybaby says:

    I had this at nursery before Christmas break for 2 weeks. This is because his key worker had left and I don’t think he felt comfortable with the other girls. I nearly went back to get him during the second week as it was starting to worry me he wasn’t being looked after probably! He is fine now thank god x

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