Empty nest

I think I’m suffering my empty syndrome about 18 years too early, I’ve just dropped LPV off at his nursery for his 2nd settling in  session, believe me he didn’t sound too “settled” when I left!! That’s right what a bitch I’ve left my child!!!!with strangers, strangers that don’t even speak the same language as him. If you could feel the pain in my chest now, it’s unbelievable . I sobbed, I sobbed like a baby and I had to wheel an empty buggy home which made me worse. I took the scenic route home so I didn’t look like a crazy woman crying & pushing an empty buggy I could clear my head. I got home put on the kettle first then I called, those extra seconds of putting on the kettle have help me go from neurotic to concerned mother I hope; I could hear him screaming in the background.

I’m going to write this post, have a shower then call again, go to the shop buy some milk, then call again…………………….is it 1 O’clock *bites fingers til the are stubs*.  My house is eerily quiet, there’s no Makka Pakka claping and air main sounds, OMG what am I going to do………..


7 thoughts on “Empty nest

  1. upsydaisybaby says:

    I feel for you hun. I first dropped my baby at nusery when he was 2months old! It didn’t bother him at that age but it did me! Its always hard especially when they are crying. Xx hugs xx

  2. Renee says:

    I don’t know you; I read about your blog on Amsterdam Mamas. I just wanted to let you know that it will get better! My daughter has been going twice a week to the creche for over a year now. At first, she cried every time I left, and it broke my heart! She still tells me in the morning that she doesn’t want to go, but when I go to pick her up, she’s so excited to show me all the things she’s done that day, and then doesn’t want to go home. That said, she hated peuterspeelzaal and I took her out after two months. Anyway, kids this age are really great at picking up language; you’ll be amazed at how fast your little one is rattling on in Dutch!

  3. MsXpat says:

    At the start is tough but you all with soon get into the groove of things. When you meet at the end of nursery time you’ll both enjoy being together even more.

  4. thesingingmummy says:

    It is heartbreaking leaving them. Poor you I feel for you it is so difficult. sending big hugs to you and to your little one and I am sure that in no time he will be loving it! x

  5. Nikki Thomas says:

    Listen you are definitely not a bitch! You are a lovely mum who needed a few hours to herself who loves her son very much! You will both get used to it, I promise!

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